Happy belated birthday sayang mummy..

I still remember 2 yrs ago... I was pregnant and expecting my first baby~ around 9pm on 6.may, my water broke & its really funny when i tot sy tekencing sbb x dpt tahan mau p toilet lol~ sy betul2 binggung skejap when my sister (ank angkat my mum) told me sy mau beranak sda, sbb sy lngsng x rsa sakit.. my mom, my che2, & my brother semua binggung ni but sy lg binggung saw them acting like i'm in pain padahal it's just air ketuban pecah what & langsung x sakit.. they send me to hospital, papah sy mcm sy kesakitan sda btl.. sy yg marah sbb treat me mcm 2 & i said memalukan plus sy malu nmpk air ketuban sy mc mengalir.. sampai sana the nurse check me and saying that bukaan sy baru 1cm which is langsung teda rsa sakit apa2.. then the nurse ask me pigi wad & admit la.. i was like seriously, teda apa2 pon sakit & i told my mom i wanna go home nnti tnggu sakit bru sya dtg blk sbb mmg lngsng x sakit.. then my my said mcm ni "aik tea, ko jngn sakit tu nanti" smbil senyum2 yg sinis pnya senyuman ni.. & since hospital ranau is not hospital besar penjaga x dibenarkan then the nurse ask my mom pulang.. bila my mom sda plg, bru sy teringat my hubby.. astaga ya kn my hubby blm tau i admit to the hospital sbb he was at my mother in-law house on that time.. then i text him.. he was like seriously u forgot me?? hahaha.. he want to stay with me but the nurse said CANNOT especially lelaki x boleh ada dlm wad bersalin.. jadi dngn berat hati dia pon keluar la haha.. around 4am i swear to god tiba2 pinggang sy sangat sakit and tdk selesa mcm rsa pinggang sy kena twist berabis, i want to cry tp air mata lngsng x mau keluar.. i told the duty nurse to check me then 2 nurse pon p la check sy.. she said to me "baru 4cm ba 2 tahan dlu k.. jngn teran nnti rahim koyak".. omaigad betul2 tuhan sja yg tau perasaan sy mcm 2 sda sakit mcm tu but still bru 4cm.. sepanjang masa mau tunggu bukaan tu another scariest part was when ur perut kena kasi pasang like a wire and u can hear the baby heart beat so loud & i said to the nurse kenapa jantung ank sy laju betul 2 is it ok & normal.. i think my baby about to come tp teda bukaan.. bedah sja la sy hahaha.. then the nurse senyum sja dia bilang "andang2 baitu titie".. but somehow i still nervous to the max and sampai tdk tahan sy cakap i want my aunt yg kasi beranak sy (luckily my aunt was nurse d labor room & ada sijil or certificate or whatever they called it untuk kasi beranak org) the nurse ckp "o ko ank buah c murnikah pula..ba ok tunggu c murnikah la dia kerja pagi2 tu, sempat lg ni tnggu dia" then the nurse ask me balik p wad dlu sambil tnggu bukaan.. kasi sedia baby oil, bju bby yg ko mau kasi pkai sma tuala & lampin.. i was walking keluar dr labor room & my pinggang hurt so bad mcm rasa sakit betul2 kna cucuk2..haha. .funny part is when i'm heading to wad tiba2 sakit yg macam mau berak and I was screaming to the nurse saying that I want to berak..the nurse say ko lama lagi mo beranak tu.. they estimate me beranak the next day kali..bukaan ko baru 4 cm ba she say. .but I really cannot tahan already and holding my tummy while standing..and I convince them saying that I really want to berak.. they just said p blk dulu d katil ma titie nnti kami p sna.. sy pon dngn berat hatinya blk p katil.. then sy teingat my mom punya minyak kelapa dara, she said to me b4 bgus spya cpt branak.. sy pn p mnum trus stngh botol sbb tlmpau kesakitan sda & mau cpt2 sja hilang 2 sakit.. after minum 2 klpa dara bertambah2 sakit sy.. msa menunggu bukaan was the scariest part btl2 the pain hanya tuhan sja yg tau.. sampai sy pumping lg d katil sy.. text my hubby smbil marah2 sbb tlmpau kesakitan.. text my mom & said i'm really sorry for hurting u so bad i never tot this hurt to give birth of a baby.. text my aunt also to come quick sbb sy btl2 x blh tahan sda.. bila sy tingu jam it's alomst 6am punya cepat msa bejalan sy rsa on that time.. that the moment i will never forget.. its really hurt especially part pinggang i was melutut & crying but funny like i said b4 x keluar air mata hahaha.. then when the nurse saw me sda mcm 2 they cpt2 papah me msuk p labor room again.. sampai di labour room naik atas katil and check it was about to come 9cm suda..masa tu all I can think was only mati..seriously it was so pain.. i was about to give up biar la 2 sakit tu but tfkr psl my mom.. how my mom sacrifice her life for me back then, sy jadi kuat sikit & trying hard kasi kuat semangat.. then tidak lama i saw my aunt & rsa selmat sikit sbb ada keluarga sama2 sy.. on 7.05am I'm safely delivered a baby girl they put my baby girl right infront of me in my arms.. for the first time i meet my baby girl i was crying, menangis tiba2 sbb tlmpau gembira finally i could make it i safely delivered a healthy baby girl.. then they ambl my baby kasi bersih msa tu mcm hilang sda sakit sy totaly hilang.. msa they jahit pon i dont feel itu sakit kna jahit lngsng x rsa sbb nmpk my baby right infront of me.. I keep looking at her and still can believe that im officially a mother..she got so many hair.. big baby weight 3.2kg & the nurse said its consider besar sbb it's first baby & she is tall same like both of us that for sure sbb bru lahir tp panjang is 53cm suda.. and we name her Saarah Xandria @ Snow .. today 07.05.2014 genap la umur dia 2 tahun. .grow up to be a big girl soon..give me stress and headache sometimes.. & i admit its not easy to raise a kids hihi..mumy wish u a very happy birthday sayang..many happy return.. may God bless u with good health..I maybe not a good and perfect mother.. but always remember that we love u so much.. & u r mumy strength & happiness.. and once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY. .always remember that we love u so much with all our heart. .much love from mumy, dady & mei2(mulan)